I'm a beginner in zen, so forgive me if this...aww, screw it. I'm not going to qualify my question. It is what it is.
What do you all think about the issue of personal suffering? What I mean is, I took up zazen and Buddhism in order to feel better. Doesn't everyone?
I'm in a bad mood today/tonight, and am going to sit w/ it and see how things go.
While I'm trying not to talk myself out of my bad mood, the fact that I'm sitting and choosing (or attempting to choose) not to "pick up" any more negative thoughts means I'm trying to cheer myself up in a way.
What's the zen view on that?
Is happiness the ultimate goal? A fortunate byproduct? Impossible? Am I supposed to even want to feel better?