Being the moment
Quiet isn't it?
This is a description of a 'an experience' I had during Zazen in the Autumn.
I had become aware that no matter how focussed I was, there was still a residue of self there - a sense that the phenomena in my awareness were being observed. Right at the end of a half-day zazen session, Rose - the lady who directs our sittings - said a few words about 'being one with the moment'. I 'tried to become one with the moment', wondering what it meant exactly and suddenly it seemed as if there was not the slightest bit of space between 'myself' and 'phenomena'. This lasted for several minutes and then I had a powerful sense that 'me' and 'that moment' were one and the same thing. There was 'only one'. It wasn't an idea, it was a direct experience (without an 'experiencer').
It seems that avoiding clinging to the experience and trying to reproduce it is wise advice but then again it doesn't seem difficult to take myself through the same steps - instead of 'just sitting', actively try to 'become one with' phenomena in the same way only to realise once again in a very direct way that that 'I cannot avoid being one with phenomena'.
Ahh...the temptation to the dark side is strong...
...Back to the washing up.